thequietdedicated:

She often wondered, when a body arrived, what the story behind this person—now once-person—was. Who they had been when they were more than just a number, a statistic among many? Her thoughts were brief, however, since there was work to be done and little space for ruminating.

She observed, her experienced eyes trained to identify the most telling things. Cause of death, and all that. Sometimes she didn’t want to think about it, but think she did. After all, every story has its conclusion, and it was part of her job to find how it ended.

One would think she’d have grown accustomed to Death’s gentle gravity by now.

She didn’t shy away from it, no, not from the body itself—no matter how horrific—not from the concept of death. Perhaps that was why her peers had found her strange, when she stayed up late for many nights trying to lock vital information into her mind, when she spent more time with the dead than she did with the living. The dead, who were silenced forever, but held a mystery so tangible that she felt it was her duty to decipher what they no longer had the chance to say. The body was a language, its organs, functions, tiny intricacies; the way the ions moved, the accumulation, the onset of rigor mortis, the reaction of dead tissue to time, a dance of the physical and metaphysical. It was Death, for sure, but Life as well; it was the obvious hidden in plain sight, a puzzle, a mystery, something not quite ordinary.

It was… beautiful. Somehow.

Guh. Reposting that because blending problems. ._.

I’m beginning to be sorry that prose is few and far between.

There’s nothing like waiting for a call that never comes. You try to keep calm, try to tell yourself that nothing’s happened, that maybe the line has tripped or the phone’s run out of battery. Maybe the reception’s bad. (At the top of a building? Heh, highly likely.) But it’s better than, well, the other possibility, but you don’t think about it because if you don’t think about it, it won’t happen, right?

So you wait. And you carry on with what you are meant to do at the present moment. Every movement you make, now, every action is magnified in your head; measured, deliberate and careful. You let your task fill your being, your mind, crowd out your thoughts. Because of that one thing that isn’t supposed to happen and that won’t happen if you don’t think about it. …right?

The trepidation grows, only because you know the person whose call you are awaiting will go to any lengths to finish what he started. Only because you really should have received that call by now, and what the hell is taking him so long?

But you wait. You wait until the crowd’s out on the streets and there’s a commotion and you ignore it because of that growing pit of dread and the thought you don’t want to think about. You walk and you wait and you’re not sure if you should run to the place where he last was, or if you should turn around and go home.

But he specifically said, go back. So you go back. You go back and you’re half expecting to be greeted at the door by that expressive face and that characteristic sing-song tone of voice. No one’s home.

And by then, you can feel it, that impossible possibility and its deadweight of a certainty, and it’s almost suffocating. But no, nothing’s for sure unless he says so. And so, you wait.

And you wait.

And the certainty grows more and more substantial. You don’t need to know, because you already do, and because bloody fucking hell that son-of-a-bitch should have told you.

And you wait to feel something, some rush of emotion, or pain, maybe you hope for tears, because it would feel more real, more identifiable, but all there is is a huge, yawning emptiness that pervades your entire being and an unfamiliar feeling of helplessness that might be frustrating if it didn’t feel so unreal. But it’s unidentifiable and alien and strange and all you can do is sit with your head in your hands and let a strange mix of anger and bitterness settle.

And you wait, although there is nothing to wait for.

And there is nothing like waiting for a call that never comes. Nothing.

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